Tuesday, November 29, 2005

[[Beautiful Dreams Are Made of These]]

Beautiful Dreams Are Made of These- Chapter 1


Sing... sing to me. Right now I can still hear you. Who knows how long I can do that. One day you might just find me deaf to the world. When I get really sick of listening to all the lies around me I might just shut myself in.

What are you saying, Erika? You're scaring me.

You'll never understand, Jo. Things are perfect for you while my world just keeps crashing down no matter how hard I try to piece it back together. Come on, let's sing tonight! Let's forget about everything...and just be happy. At least for one night. One night...before the day comes...and I have to face my life again. Come on!

Erika, be careful. The rocks are sharp! Wait for me!

Come on!! "Take the wave now and know that you're free! Turn your back on the land, face the sea!" Come on, Jo!

I'm coming! Slow down! You're drunk!

I'm not! Hey Jo...I think I can fly!

Erika!

Aaaa! Jo, help me!

Hold on tight! Don't let go of my hand!

Jo!

Use your right foot to push yourself up! And don't let go of my hand! Come on Erika, a little bit more!

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Oh my God! I thought I was going to lose you!

I'm sorry Jo...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...

There there, you're alright now, you're alright.

[[Lil Princess Wrote On]]*|10:15 AM|

Saturday, November 19, 2005

[[My New Painting]]

My New Painting

I'm painting a new picture
A picture I hope will capture,
A fresh page in my history
A new chapter to my story
I'll use red, green and blue
And I'll paint a portrait for you
And I hope one day you'll see
The real person inside of me
I'm not trying to hide
I'm not saying I'm right
All I ask is that you try,
To see beyond the lie
Don't wash me away
Give me another day
You might just take me in
You might just start to grin
So look closely now
You might not know how,
To judge this piece of art
Don't. Just view it with your heart
What do you see?
Is it really what you want it to be?
A heart being set free?
Or a picture of you and me?

~Anonymous


Disclaimer: I am not in love.

[[Lil Princess Wrote On]]*|9:24 AM|

Sunday, November 13, 2005

[[You've lost me, I doubt there's a turning back, I've had it!]]

*Warning: This piece of post is not very pleasing to read, I reckon it will be for some anyway, and I feel quite pissed, in a way, that my first post after so long has to encompass such an issue. I, however, need an avenue to rant and release my magma, FYI, the thing that comes out of a volcano when it erupts is called "lava" only after it gets released, before that it's called "magma". Why I'm comparing myself to a volcano I have yet to figure out but right now I feel good about comparing myself to something so massive, and possibly destructive. For post- "Oh-GOD-I read-Zaidah's-Rants-On-Her-Blog" trauma treatment, which just means that if you want something more pleasing to read after this, read the post before this one. It is by far the most pleasing one, and it isn't written by me. Have fun!

Oh gosh I had one of the worst times ever just now! I just hated everything about it! I was surrounded by mindless idiots who were oblivious to other things but themselves and the bimbo-ness of their selective sight! I just can't believe things have turned out the way they did. I admit, I have never been really close or on the same "frequency" as them but whatever happened just now is the last straw. It's amazing how much deterioration of character can take place in a year, or possibly within an even shorter time. Just how much can one succumb to society's shit? The extend to which minds can close, especially when these minds used to disagree with the "atrocities" of life once upon a time, is appalling. The word "atrocities" can now be used to describe the many other ironies that are obviously surfacing.

Does what a person wears make the person? Why is it that one bothers keeping tabs on what other people wear? I mean, its okay to want to look presentable but when that desire borders on the brink of obsession and becomes an avenue for the judging of character it's just wrong and shallow. By the way, in your opinion, what is it about your hide that puts you above everyone else? Obviously I have to ask about your views because a lot of other people, intelligent people, do not think so.

Is engaging in conversations about cosmetics products the most intelligent thing you people can do? Why do you make other people's physiques your problem? Don't you have enough of your own? Is your own body in tip top condition that you have to bother about others'? If you don't like your body, nobody has to hear about it because no one wants to know! For heavens' sake, and for your own and the sanity of those smarter than you who happen to, by some twist of fate, be around you, can you talk about something else other than your interest in the opposite sex, which is misguided in the most base sense anyway- by lust? I seriously wonder what principles govern your lives. If some of you have problems with loving yourselves or your correcting your low self-esteem, go do something about it! Other people do not need to be subjected to the various manifestations of your inadequacies, most of which are really downright crude and plain stupid! And there is no need for pretense; it's hard enough to be one's own self. How long can you keep it up anyway?

I swear, you people are the very kind of "diseased" things I try darn hard to keep away from me, and those plaguing society. What have you become? You're not just an embarrassment, you're a disappointment! You didn't use to be that way. Now you have become the very people you used to hate.

Call it a perception problem or whatever else you want, but I can't be around you people anymore. I've had it.

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I am, however, glad that a friend whom most have thought of as "lost" is actually more sensible than everyone else.

By the way, the event in this post did not take place on the same day as its posting.

[[Lil Princess Wrote On]]*|5:30 AM|

[[*The Princess*]]

Name: Princess Zee
Bdae: 5 Sept 1986
Nicks: Princess Zaidah, Princess, and more Princess..haha, ZeeZee
Skool: School of Thoughts
Contact: hA!

[[*My Adores*]]

Food: Hmmmm...anything Halal and tastes good...duh! If not, keep them away from me
Drinks: Water, juices
Pastimes: Writing, sleeping, reading, watching TV, listening to different genres of music; varying from the head-banging ones to classical
People: My Family, My Meridian Babes, All my frens, "Benjamin"

[[*My Detests*]]

People: Those who annoy me, and it's easy to achieve that so the "components" to get the desired effect is of a large scope...go figure!
Things: Lizards!!!
Food: Vile-tasting and smelling ones

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